The end of January

The end of January is coming nearer and I am still experiencing these ups and downs of what it is I am here to do. Whatever. I feel tired. I'm being honest right now. I miss my girls back in Canada. I miss painting. I miss having my own place. And I miss my cat. I am missing a lot right now, but like someone once told me.. every time you're doing one thing, you're always missing out on something else. 
I'm in a world where I just don't fit in but perhaps it's only because I am not comfortable with myself.
Because it is a constant battle and constant comparison. Crazy. Put me in the water, and I'll show you what I got. I am water. But right now this water is tired. 

My new intern position..

So, a few months ago I had been feeling a little unhappy. Deep inside me I knew I needed to get out and experience something new. I had been talking to a photographer by the name of Mick Gleissner whom I knew had situated himself in Cebu, Philippines. Coincidentally, just exactly where my family lived. About a year ago I received an e-mail about an intern position that had opened up at Bigfoot Studios. I couldn't go because I had still not completed my apprenticeship. However, almost a year later after the completion of my apprenticeship, I received another e-mail about another internship that was available. Again, I could not go due to my tight work schedule. This was about the time that something in me had began to itch... I wanted to go. I wanted to move on.. and perhaps this was my chance. So.. after much thought, I decided I would take the opportunity to visit my family and during my stay, I would make a visit to Bigfoot. 

2 weeks later, I'm sitting in the Bigfoot office being greeted by the Director Mick Gleissner. Welcome aboard he says. Here is footage of my first time ever being in Bigfoot... somehow I managed to be included in a 24HR video competition that the interns were doing. Click the link below:



Nobody But You (Bigfoot Studios)


So, this is my life now. A Production intern at Bigfoot Studios where I will be able to nurture my creativity, work with talented people from all over the world and experience something I would have never been able to experience had I not followed my heart.


To follow us more closely, visit:

TV Bigfoot YouTube Channel 


See you later Canada... I've returned home.

What the new year has brought me thus far...

By midnight I was flying over the Pacific Ocean with other Filipino's trying to get back home. It was a 30 hour flight and going through Manila would have been difficult had I not had an angel guide me through. I really am lucky and more and more I realize just how fortunate I am. I think my gratitude grows more everyday. Being with my family has really struck a cord with me. I am observing who I am by observing who they are. I recognize a small loss by growing up in a culture so different from my place of birth, but at the same time I have a great gain by the knowledge I have obtained through my experience in Canada. I came back to the Philippines to return to my roots, to see where I came from, to experience my family as much as I can.. to make up for lost time, but also to open my eyes. How can I ever complain when I see their struggles to survive and their daily life. I feel comfortable in this environment, I can feel it soaking into me. I embrace all of the culture, the life, the attitude, the people and I accept this world as it is. No place is perfect, but it is perfect right down to the core of my heart.