yes!

sorry I've been a little morbid, but I think I'm getting better now.
Whatever doesn't kill you can only make you stronger.
I just want everyone to know I love them.
Yes.
I love you.

If I die...

Please celebrate my life like they do for IZ at 2:45 in this song.
I've always wanted to be cremated and poured into the ocean.
Let no one be sad.

it started a bad morning

THIS IS A STICKER I DREW FOR A FRIEND I MET IN PHI PHI ISLAND

"Sunsets, oceans and mountains hold memories"

It started a bad morning.

I woke up with a nose bleed.

And then I had to trip my way to the toilet

and afterwards I cried hysterically for 10 minutes.

It was a bad morning, but let me tell you that I needed a damn good cry.

I was feeling bad. 

Not only did I just want to be better, but I wanted to be at home.

My real home. My home, home. Canada. 

Where there are no mosquitos that will give you Dengue Fever...

ha. At least not yet, thank goodness. 

So, after I had a good cry I passed out for the rest of the morning.

And then I spent the rest of the day with the shades open

listening to all my favourite old songs, like Somewhere Over the Rainbow by IZ

and Hyperballad by Bjork.

I cried again sometime before dinner, but I'm feeling better now.

In fact, I'm definitely happier. 

Everyone needs a good cry. It's been a while since I've cried.

I deserved it today. 

And now, I'm going to eat breakfast for dinner.

YUM. 

:D

I am just a small drop in this ocean, but I am still precious.

Oh how we humans take so much for granted.

After 3 days of not eating and seeing nurses, doctors and the back of my eyelids

I was so happy to be away from airports and strangers and in the comfort of my bed.

And finally I could eat! A piece of barbecued chicken has never tasted so amazing.

The leaves and the grass have never looked so green. 

Everything smells so strong... not necessarily a good thing for bad smells or strong scents.

I can feel my heart beating, My dreams are vivid. I dream of people I haven't seen in years.

Is this what happens when you think you're going to die?

But I am alive! 

Even how weak I feel. Even though I can barely stand up in the shower..

Or hold myself up or turn without feeling dizzy and nauseous...

I can still breath! I am here! Thank goodness!

I am so lucky!

I need to hug so many people!

I said to myself.. better me that got Dengue Fever 

than someone who may not have been strong enough.

It is certainly life changing.

I have had many, many strangers help me on this trip

and so I am lucky to have been helped all the way through to make sure that I got home safe.

My angels were watching. 

They always are. 

Thank you. 

Thank you.

Thank you.

On Phi Phi Island
While eating at the only Indian restaurant

Again on Phi Phi Island
In the dorm room