The longest day has passed again

For the past few hours I've been going through my past writing in order to compile a book. Going through my old writing on MYSPACE (<--- click the link to visit my old writing) is like going through my soul. It's interesting when you go through your past just how much it repeats itself. We keep going through the same things until we learn our lesson. Or perhaps I'm just a broken record. Perhaps I'm just a glitch in time.

Oh silly woman.

So since we last met, I have since stopped working full-time, focused on my art, became engaged, went to Cuba and am now working on my book and my wedding details.

I believe that my perspective on time is different from everyone else and that what most people can achieve in 3 years, I will achieve in 3 months. I create time with my mind and that is why people probably think I am crazy.

I also lead others to believe that I am some wild woman when in reality I am a humble housewife. I want to make babies. I want to make art and I love to cook. Somewhere in there I became a traveler, but since my last flight to Cuba I discovered I am not really fond of flying. Traveling either. Sigh. I've been moving my whole life and at some point I would really like to stand still.

You know that stillness that you get when you wake up so early that the mist is still covering the ground and you can see your breathe? The kind of stillness that if you close your eyes you can hear the sound of the wind in the palm trees on the other side of the Earth?

Yes, that stillness.

But I am now working on finding that "spot" within myself. So to be still among all the chaos and all the din created by my mind and humanity. No matter where I am in the world I'd like to be able to close my eyes with my eyes open and hear palm trees blowing in the wind.

It sounds like rain.

Mobility

I'm testing this out to see if this works. Walking around writing and
posting to my blog from my cell phone. Sigh. Technology.

Hibernate

I wanted to share this music video with you that I recently shot and edited. My good friend May-Jun is a beautiful singer/songwriter and artist and we took the day to create her newest video for her song "Hibernate." Hope you like it!

The 80/20 update.

It's been a while that I've written. So much can change in the blink of an eye.

Montreal will soon be home for me.

When I move in July, I'll be traveling between Muskoka, Sudbury, Montreal and Ottawa all for work - all for the passion of art and love. Have you ever heard of the 80/20 rule?
My friend May-Jun told me to look it up one day and I found this great article on it:

http://www.entrepreneurs-journey.com/397/80-20-rule-pareto-principle/

It's an inspiring piece of writing that I've been reading slowly over the past couple of days.
It talks about how we shouldn't spend time working at a job we don't like and spending more time on our passions because we can generate more income when we're happy. I'm probably saying it wrong, but please talk the time to read it. It's marvelous.

In two weeks we'll be having an artshow in Sudbury, carving and decorating cakes and filming it. I'm in love you know.

It's been a while since I've written partially because I haven't been in front of a computer.
I'm seeing things more clearly now. Everything I've been doing has been in the right direction. I have let go of a lot of things and I'm looking forward now.

I had my cards read and all of my cards in the past where upside down. Now they are right side up. They told me everything will be more clear... and like I just said, things have never been more clear as they are now.

Life is amazing. We just have to believe in it and we have to believe in ourselves. We can't hate on who we are, we have to accept ourselves and love ourselves fully before we can attract what we want and WHO we want in our lives. We'll meet people for different reasons though, but all to teach you something about who you are.

Be flexible, I always think to myself. I have to adapt to changing times around me, but no matter how many times I move I know the space within myself is still. And it helps that now I have someone by my side to remind me of that stillness and to show me real love.

I've never known a love like this before.

I've never known life to be this good before. Even when it's not good, it's still good.
And that is how I know I'm on the right path.

When things work out and they are easy... it's right.

Life is funny though. She takes you on a ride first before giving you what you've been waiting for. Try to ask her nicely for what you want and be ready to give something in return. Be ready to give all of yourself. When it's right, it will just be easy and you'll just know.

Patience is the key.

Well that's about it I suppose. I'll be leaving soon in two weeks to drive across Canada to Vancouver and down to California. It's going to be such an adventure, something I've always wanted to do just to know that I've done it and just to learn everything I can on the way.

It's for experience, for memories, for learning and for love.

That is why Life is so good.

entangled pieces thrown into the sun

how entrenched our thoughts are combined with each others.
life is a set up for heart break, our human thoughts like darts and grenades.
we want love. we all want love. we know when it is right. we know when it is not.
we are stupid and mindless, bumbling fools when our minds are clouded.
it's time to release, clear space, be simple, have less, be one.
it's just that i can feel the ripping and tearing from years of becoming entangled.
it's not simple to unravel, but our hearts know and it's hard to follow,
but it's true. to give yourself fully and completely you need to be you.
100 percent yourself, no fear and go.
it is the fear that holds us bound by what we do, chained melodies playing sorrow
through the night.
carelessness is a devil not to dance with.
honesty will overcome, prevail and lead us to where we need to be.
honesty with ourselves. honesty with others.
love for ourselves. love for others.
all directions point to love
like flocking birds heading in the direction of the sun.
we are one and that is why it hurts to rip apart.
but the earth will heal you.
the air will comfort you.
the water will cleanse you.
the fire will warm you.