Lost

I fear I have been sucked in.
Lost to my way.
I have forgotten what I came to do
And now I must do what it takes
To give back.
To be me again.
To be true to all of my Self.

What happened?

Where it comes from

Abandonment is the fear you have when you are adopted. It's so deep that often you don't realize you fear it, so you spend the majority of your life being afraid of being alone. Yet unconsciously, you have relationships where in the end, you end up alone.

But it all comes from somewhere. The hurt you feel comes from a past event in which you have not dealt with. You have not given time for it to play out in your mind and to be forgiven.

Do so now.

(A note in my iPhone written on June 7, 2012)

Testing

I forget about this sometimes.
Simple writing.
No thoughts, no "I should write this."
Just mindless banter.
Freestyle.

-Mailyne

Random E-mails

I just received this e-mail and I don't know who this person is, but whoever Siggi is, thank you.

"You have no idea, the great things that are about to happen to you,
The great endeavors you will do. How you will inspire others to succeed. You have only caught a glimpse of all of the wonderful things that shall come to pass.

And if people offer their help or wisdom as you go through life, accept it gratefully. You can learn much from those who have gone before you but never be afraid or hesitant to step off the accepted path and head off in your own direction, if your heart tells you that it's the right way for you. Always believe that you will ultimately succeed at whatever you do, and never forget the value of persistence, discipline, and determination.

You are meant to be whatever you dream of becoming."

  

Siggi

Grey skies

Don't mention it
How the skies cloud me
When the world is grey
The windows blur green
And the sky slowly breathes
Cloud covers me like a blanket
To suffocate me
The sun is there somewhere
The blue tints poke through
This is the start of November