Alone together

I watched a TED talk that fascinated me. It was by a woman named Sherry Turkle on how technology has impacted our lives and not necessarily for the better. I haven't stopped thinking about it. In fact it's led me to be more aware of how often I'm on my phone, how often I check my mail etc etc. It affects the way we communicate. It affects who we are. We can no longer have conversations without our mind wandering, without our hands idling or reaching for our phone to text. We can't sit and interact as well as before and we most certainly have forgotten how to be alone. I lay here and type this wondering how it came to this.. Me in the dark typing my thoughts on a screen, my pen and paper long forgotten. Well I think it is time to go back. Reconnect the proper way. Talk, Write, focus on one thing. Be alone. Be silent. Be in peace.

Lost

I fear I have been sucked in.
Lost to my way.
I have forgotten what I came to do
And now I must do what it takes
To give back.
To be me again.
To be true to all of my Self.

What happened?

Where it comes from

Abandonment is the fear you have when you are adopted. It's so deep that often you don't realize you fear it, so you spend the majority of your life being afraid of being alone. Yet unconsciously, you have relationships where in the end, you end up alone.

But it all comes from somewhere. The hurt you feel comes from a past event in which you have not dealt with. You have not given time for it to play out in your mind and to be forgiven.

Do so now.

(A note in my iPhone written on June 7, 2012)

Testing

I forget about this sometimes.
Simple writing.
No thoughts, no "I should write this."
Just mindless banter.
Freestyle.

-Mailyne

Random E-mails

I just received this e-mail and I don't know who this person is, but whoever Siggi is, thank you.

"You have no idea, the great things that are about to happen to you,
The great endeavors you will do. How you will inspire others to succeed. You have only caught a glimpse of all of the wonderful things that shall come to pass.

And if people offer their help or wisdom as you go through life, accept it gratefully. You can learn much from those who have gone before you but never be afraid or hesitant to step off the accepted path and head off in your own direction, if your heart tells you that it's the right way for you. Always believe that you will ultimately succeed at whatever you do, and never forget the value of persistence, discipline, and determination.

You are meant to be whatever you dream of becoming."

  

Siggi